Full-Blown Agony: A Personal Battle Against the Mysterious Pain of Cluster Headaches

It began on a dreary weekday in the morning in September 2016. I worked as a teacher, attempting to manage a new group of students, when a intense pain bloomed behind my one eye. Then came rapid stabs, reminiscent of electric shocks. As each class progressed, the pain subsided and then came back with increased force. Four times that day I handed over a colleague with activities and hurried to the school bathroom to douse my face with cool water. I tried ibuprofen, but the agony remained unbearable.

The attacks appeared frequently that fall, and again in spring, soon forming an yearly pattern. September and October were the worst, then February and March. I could predict the routine: a warning sensation in the morning, early twinges on the train, full-blown agony in the classroom by mid-morning. In 2019, a GP eventually sent me to a specialist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headaches.

Cluster headaches often start with intense discomfort behind a single eye that persists for several hours.

Approximately 1 in 1000 people are affected by the disorder, and men are more often affected. Attacks usually begin with abrupt, excruciating agony around one eye that reaches its peak within a short time and lasts for up to three hours. Episodes come in clusters, daily or several times a day, and are accompanied by tearing eyes, drooping eyelids or facial perspiration. There exists the episodic form, which arrives in seasonal cycles; others have continuous attacks, characterized by the absence of long pain-free periods.

What connects sufferers is the severity. One research paper scored the sensation at 9.7 10, higher than bone fractures or pancreatitis. A separate discovered 64% of cluster patients reported thoughts of self-harm during attacks; the figure fell to 4% when they were pain-free.

One patient, in her seventies, a chronic patient from Wales, finds this understandable. Her attacks began when she was a toddler. “I would hurl myself on the floor and bang my head. That was attributed to being a difficult child,” she says. Her condition deteriorated through her youth. Alcohol in her adolescence, similar to many causes, made things more intense. After having sherry at her graduation party, she remembers hardly being able to see on the bus home.

Her family often mistook her episodes as drunken behavior. Support finally came from her father and then from her husband, her spouse. “I was very fortunate to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs took clerical work after relocating, but often hid her illness. She was dismissed from one job, in part due to time off during episodes. Her definitive identification came in the early 2000s at a national neurology center.

Nevertheless, the inability to plan daily activities around unpredictable pain took its toll. She especially disliked being unable to plan outings, being seen as flaky as a colleague, and even having to be cared for by her family during the incapacitation caused by the worst episodes. “It steals from you of the small liberties we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She recalls winning tickets for a major concert, only to have an episode inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been described throughout history. “The first account of headache comes by way of the ancient civilizations in antiquity,” write experts in a publication on the topic. They linked the ailment to an malevolent spirit who afflicted his victims' heads.

Ancient healing texts suggest bizarre remedies for what modern observers would classify as a headache disorder. In the medieval times, migraine was identified as a separate condition, with therapies including bloodletting to other, more folk remedies.

It was a European doctor who provided the initial comprehensive account of a cluster-type attack. In his medical observations, he speaks of a patient “suffering with a very severe headache happening and vanishing each day at specific hours”.

The disorder were only formally recognised by international headache committees in the late 1980s. From the 1960s to the late 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a issue with a key blood vessel which delivers blood to the head. Prominent experts in treating the disorder explain this.

In the late 1990s, scientists released the results of a research project for which they had triggered cluster headaches in patients and observed the episodes in a imaging machine. The results, published in a prominent journal, showed activation of the a brain region, which is in charge for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in pain, and a reduction when they felt better.

Despite such progress, identification remains delayed. Jamie Charteris's symptoms began in 1986 and felt like “a modelling balloon being inflated behind my one eye”. GPs thought he had a sinus issue; he had four operations before eventually being correctly identified in recently, after a doctor researched his complaints.

Specialists say wait times in diagnosing and managing occur because patients are rarely seen during an episode. “You're exhausted and low, but not in severe pain,” one says. He works by eliminating other common head pain disorders, such as migraine, before confirming the disorder. A detailed history is essential: on which part of the head do signs appear? For how much time? What season? Are there precipitating factors, such as alcohol? Certain characteristics such as tearing, sagging eyelids and stuffy nose help confirm the diagnosis. Once identified, patients may be sent to dedicated clinics. But a lot of first arrive to emergency rooms or are given unsuitable therapies.

Dorothy Chapman, in her late seventies, has suffered from cluster headaches for the majority of her life, although she has been free from an episode since 2016. When she was in her twenties, she had her teeth extracted because dental professionals misinterpreted her symptoms. She believes dentists still need greater education. When another patient sought help from a charity, it was Chapman who responded. I remember calling a helpline during an bout in early 2021; a calm volunteer guided me through oxygen treatment and drugs until the episode passed.

Official guidelines on management recommend that sufferers are offered high-dose oxygen and/or a specific medication administered by nasal spray. No oral painkillers or opioids should be used. Prophylactic choices include a blood pressure medication, which reportedly soothes the attacks of well-known individuals.

But leading neurologists argue the official guidelines need updating to reflect a more defined treatment process and help GPs avoid incorrect prescriptions. For episodic patients, the treatment window is critical: “The length of the bout determines the treatment.” Short bouts with infrequent episodes are managed with acute therapy only. More prolonged or more intense periods require preventives such as verapamil, sometimes combined with corticosteroids. A significant number of patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a bout – an procedure into the area of the skull where the pain is that decreases nerve signals.

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